i miss happiness

[ngatusthoughts]

if i had to describe my thoughts,
i'd say gloomy.

i feel like one of those clouds about to rain; i'd be smart and say that's a metaphor for my tears but metaphor implies a figure of speech that isn't entirely true but it might be in a second.

i really don't know the reasons why i feel the way i do.

i guess its just that time of the day, dissociation. i feel a disconnect from my life and self. its odd.

loneliness? depression?
all are just words to me, i can't properly describe how i'm feeling but all i know is once i was happy and now i'm sort of not.

i miss it definitely